Surely It Can't All be Uphill from here

There is so much uncertainty in my life right now. If I knew what next week would bring, or next month maybe sitting here in the very same place I sat before I "went out into the real world" would be easier. The truth is, I am scared. I am scared of never reaching my dreams, or of the fact that maybe I don't know what those are right now. I'm scared of never knowing love in all its potential. I am scared of failing. For the first time in my life I fear my future. Then I have a reality check... He's carried me all of my life. Through the best of times and through the worst. I've made it. I'm alive and have all of my limbs. No, things are not the way I imagined them. I'm not out changing the world today like I want to, and maybe the time I've had to spend with my little brother this week wasn't what I thought success would be, but would I honestly trade it for the world? The truth is, I know full well that even in those times when I feel so very alone- I am still surrounded with more love than I even realize. This is my life- I am going to do my best to make the very most of it. If it is alot of little things or a few big things- it is what I make of it and what I allow God to do through me. Its the constant struggle of trusting God with my unknown.. I want Him to win!!